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QotD: My Dream Job

What is your dream job? Do you think you’ll ever have it?
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Stay at home Mom.

I had it for about five years. 

Now that the kid is in his teens I doubt I'll ever get to do it again.

QotD: Kickoff the NFL Season

Which NFL team are you rooting for this season? Who do you think will make it to the Super Bowl?

The Patriot's.  Always the Patriot's.

For Chris's 40th I got tickets to take him to see 'da Bears take on the Falcon's in October.

I love football.

Still missed

Marque...I still think about you. 

I still miss you. 

I'm sure your freinds and family do as well.

VOX and the world just aren't the same without you.

Rest in peace...send a soft breeze down to blow on the cheeks of your children today; to let them know you will always be there for them.

Hardest Day of the year

Today is Samuel's Angel Day.  Had circumstances been different he would have been born in January and would currently be 9 y/o and in the 4th grade.  I have written about him many times.  Samuel's Story  is here and then I wrote about him in  2007  and in 2008.  I was thinking that his 10 year Angel Day would somehow be different than the past nine years.  I'm not sure what I was expecting; some life altering revelation or something that has not happened.

Poems that have been written by Chris and/or me:

 

Samuel's Day

Your mother held you in her arms today,
And for a moment like a butterfly's flight
I saw an Angel hold an Angel

Your mother sang to you a lullaby today,
And for a moment like a kitten's breath
I saw an Angel sing to an Angel

Your mother gave you a kiss today,
And for a moment like a falling star
I saw an Angel kiss an Angel

You came and touched our lives today,
And for a moment like a rainbow shines
You were our little Angel

Your mother gave me a tearful smile today,
And for a moment that will last forever
I felt our little Angel

 

Four Weeks

Four weeks ago, today, I found out you were a boy.
And your heart still beat inside me

Four weeks ago tomorrow, my world started to lose it's joy. 
But your heart still beat inside me

Four weeks ago, Thursday, my world was a hospital room
But your heart still beat inside me

Four weeks ago Friday, my world grew dimmer still
But for an hour, your heart beat beside me

Four weeks ago, Tuesday, I buried my world
and I buried the heart inside me

Four weeks still feels like yesterday.  Is this my world?
No, because your heart still beats inside me

 

Missing you

Here I sit missing you
And feeling so blue
Can't seem to stop the "what if's"
And the "Should be's"
What if you were still here with me
How would my life be different
Would you have your Daddy's
Blue eyes, blonde curly hair, his temperment
Would your eyes light up,
Would you break into a big toothy grin
When I walk into the room
Would you be scared of the dogs
The vaccuum's varoom
These and many more are questions
I'll never have the answers to
I "should be" sitting here rocking you
But here I sit feeling blue
And missing you

 

As You Turn One

We should be celebrating your accomplishments
as you turn one
We should be weaning you from the bottle
as you turn one
We should be turning your car seat to face forward
as you turn one
We should be excited to see your first steps
as you turn one
We should be marveling at your first words
as you turn one
We should be wondering what new thing you would learn today
as you turn one
You should be giving hugs and kisses
as you turn one
You should be driving your big brother to distraction
as you turn one
You should be having cake and ice cream
as you turn one
You should be having lots of fun
as you turn one
I hope you are having a big celebration up in Heaven
as you turn one
I'm and down here celebrating the little time we had together
as you should be turning one

 

 

Things on Tuesday

• I'm in a 'mood' today.
• Don't want to go to my appointment.
• Don't want to work
• Don't want to do anything but sit and be mad at the World
• I have amazing internet friends
• My husband gets on my nerves
• My kid does too.
• I hate trying to lower my cholesterol.
• I want chocolate and french fries (not necessarily at the same time)
• Why can't I just curl up in a hole and die?
• ~sigh~
• I hate that my dog is getting old and can no longer sleep with me.
• I want a kitten---but since I'm allergic s/he would have to live outside and since I love my birds that love to eat at my feeders....I'll have to pass.
• I hate that even when I'm such a basket case I continue to 'put up a good front' and as a result no one really knows how desperately depressed I am.